Life is a highway.

change. This is what has been imposed to me these past few days.

I believe I have changed a lot but in the aspect of becoming better. It is actually our prerogative to change. It is our choice to become better towards who we ought to be.

However, I am bothered by the fact that few people have told me today that I have changed. That I am different.

I honestly don’t know what they mean. I just have this idea that they are actually the ones who have changed and they are throwing back the blame on me.

It’s just Newton’s Third Law: every action has an equal but opposite reaction.

They say I’ve changed because of some decisions I made. And since there is already an established commotion with that decision, they started to act differently.

akala lang nila ako yung nagbago, pero actually, sila.

As much as possible, I do not want to make this a bigger issue. I know I am still the same. I even asked my friends. We have the same thought.

Yeah. Friday is the FR-day. Evaluation of my “students”
Hopefully, they will pass the exam.
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i arrived at my campus past 7 am. fortunately, i was just in time for my first subject: MATH.
oh well. we were asked, “Why do you hate/not hate math?”
Grabe. Ayan na naman iyang tanong na iyan. Naalala ko tuloy fun memories ko with Math.

First time kong na-encounter yung Math nung mga 4 years old ako. Pumapasok ako araw-araw sa isang Day Care Center na nilalakad lang namin ng Nanay o Tatay ko tuwing umaga. Naaalala ko pa yung routine ng klase namin.

Alas Diyes ang pasok namin. Syempre, magdadatingan ang mga bata kasama ang kanya-kanyang sundo. Kadalasan si Mommy. Minsan si Daddy, Ate, Kuya, Yaya, Kapitbahay. Sila yung may bitbit ng back pack ng alaga nila at may bimpo sa isang balikat.

Tapos, sasabihin ng teacher ko, “Okay. Kids, we will start our class. Say goodbye to your parents.”

Pagkatapos sabihin ng teacher ko ito, magsisimula ng umiyak at humagulgol ang ibang bata. Parang teleserye lang.

(PAUNAWA: Hindi ako kasali sa mga iyaking bata.)

Tapos, kapag nasa loob na ang lahat, magdadasal at kakanta ng I’m a Little Tea Pot. Tapos Chikading. Tapos yung isa pang kanta na nakalimutan ko na yung title. Eto yung lyrics:

Hindi ko alam kung fruit salad ang title niyan. Kawawa naman yung kakain ng fruit salad na papaya, saging at banana lang yung ingredients.

Pagkatapos kumanta, papaupuin na kami at magsisimula na siyang magturo. Ipapalabas niya yung crayola, lapis at drawing pad namin. Payabangan pa noon. Hindi ka in kapag hindi bakal ang pencil case mo. Poor ka kapag 8 colors lang yung pangkulay mo. At wala kang ipagyayabang kapag nakalimutan mong ipagawa sa Nanay/Tatay mo yung assignment ninyo.

Palagi lang kaming nagbibilang noon. Bibilangin mo yung mga shapes sa loob ng kahon.

Yun yung unang pagsasalubong namin ng landas ng Math.

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Maaga kaming pinalabas kaya naglibot muna kami. Ngayong araw, si Jess lang ang kasama kong kumain ng lunch.

At dahil madami pang oras, nagawa na naming magpalitan ng talambuhay.

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Math na naman. Pero ok lang. Masaya naman ang Math 73 kay Ma’am Wenky.
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Biyernes. Ayoko munang umuwi. Naglaro muna kami ng basketball. Tapos napagod kami kaya bumuli kami ng maraming mineral water.

Habang nagpapahinga kami, nainip kami kaya naglaro kami ng Truth or “Konsinkwens”

Kapag truth, ang tanong, “Who is your crush?”

Kapag “konsinkwens”, ang ipapagawa sa iyo: Isigaw ang pangalan ng crush mo.

Fair enough?

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and I heard him say those words…

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simula umaga, kinakabahan ako. wala naman akong problema. bakit kaya?

THE IMPARTIALITY OF LOVE

I looked at him, he stared at me.

I asked for water, he gave it free.

I offered my hand, he held it tight.

I made a trick, he got it right.

I asked him a question, he answered it.

I made it complicated, he still got it.

I cried; he stopped me.

I am sad, he made me happy.

I felt alone, he stayed by my side.

I asked for honesty, he never lied.

I was so happy, he might as well be.

If you will ask him, I think he’ll agree.

So finally I told him, “It was you whom I am loving.”

I cried.

Because he said, “I am sorry, I was just playing.”

DO YOU LOVE ME?

I fucking care for you.

And I hate it.

Do you love me?

Answer please.

Because I love you.

RUNNING AND WAITING.

It has been months.

I am waiting for you.

Day and night you conquer my thoughts.

You are waiting for me.

Day and night I conquer your thoughts.

Running is tiring.

And so is waiting.

HEARTBREAKS

I fell apart.

Broken and shattered.

I stood up.

Firm and confident.

I found you.

Loyal and true.

I liked you.

More than others do.

I thought of you.

Day by day.

I fell for you.

Deeply and secretly.

You knew about it.

Too early.

We went out.

More than the usual.

I love you.

Oh so true.

I thought you fixed me.

But you’re just like the other.

You just tried, but you have broken me again.

LIKING AND LOVING EACH OTHER

You were my inspiration.

College motivation.

I said I like you.

And you had no reaction.

But, oh well.

Come on.

I know you miss me.

Because you like me too.

What the..I sooo miss posting here in my FS blog. I have been updating six blogs for the last few months so I didn’t find enough time for FS.

Anyway, I am still the same. Though some things have changed.

I am sad because:

-the first sem is over

-the sembreak is too long and boring

-classes are starting soon, and that means going back to the TOXIC lifestyle - sleepless nights, ugly eyebags, lots of pimples, piles of school works - the worsts you can think of.

-my first sem grades SUCK. :(( i should have taken my subjects seriously.
I am happy because:

-the classes are starting soon. (meh..obviously i am trying to be optimistic. as if i had the choice)

-i am going to see my blocmates, friends and all the people i WANNA see. unfortunately, makikita ko rin yung mga ayaw kong makita.

-i have math73 and chem14. the hell. mahihirapan ako sa mga yan for sure, so mag-eenjoy ako. wahaha.

I am hoping that:

-at the end of this sem, at least, college scholar ako. (CS)

-i will kick ass this sem

-my 3 orgs will make me busy. sana may productive activities.

-i will make new friends especially dun sa other blocs.

-i will fulfill my obligations
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PLURK STUFF

I am loving plurk. Pero I promise to stop pag nagsimula na ang secong sem. I wanna be a CS, so expect me to be soooooooooo GC (Grade Conscious). Don’t worry, I will still be maingay, cuddly, and happy all the time. Normal lang. Just imagine me na NAG-AARAL. (Ok fine, alam ko di bagay sa kin yan)

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THE RAINMAKER

I just finished reading The Rainmaker by John Grisham. Ang galing talaga. For the full story, visit my blog at http://sweetanxiety.blogspot.com/2008/11/legal-pad.html.

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MICHAEL CRICHTON

Aww. One of my favorite authors passed away last November 4, Tuesday. :((

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SNICKERS is LOVE

Demn. I am addicted to SNICKERS. Almost everyday kumakain ako nito. But I promise I will minimize my expenses. Kailangan kong mag-ipon.
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DJAMONDZ

I miss Djamondz. Once a Djamond, Always a Djamond.

Never will we forget the memories that we’ve been through.

Because through it all, our number will always be 62.

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FAMILY

I miss Mama, Daddy, Bing and Rolan. I miss the house, I miss my room, I miss the guitar. I hope palagi silang ok.

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MATT LONG

OMG! Matt Long is so freakin’ HOT! He doesn’t make me sleep! Ha, ha, ha. After watching Sydney White, I got hooked on him! I even watched Sydney White for thenth time just to see him. Ha, ha! Yeah.

I envy Amanda Bynes. She got all my crushes.

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That’s it. I think I need to set my mind for school. I wanna excel this sem.
Just like Rudy Baylor, I too will be a rainmaker.

JOANNE

~There is sunshine after the rain.