the CURSE i am talking about.
disappointments. struggles. pressure in school, at home, and everywhere i go. i feel i am always wrong. for a few i am a blessed person but for most i am cursed. for some i am a dream but in reality i am a BIG nightmare.
despair. gloom. confusions. doubts. paranoia. failure. pain.
i am hurting because i cannot turn back time. i have live a life i never ever dared to live. i may seem happy, i may seem to have a good life but there is nothing i have. i am a great impostor - pretending she is always happy. i used every field i know to express myself.
i am not happy with this. very high expectations without even a drop of encouragement. BLUFFS and DECEIT instead.
i only behave based on what i know, based on what i was told. i am in total control of my life though. My life is now a myth to me like the drifter, with his laughter in the dawn. My life is now a death to me so I’ll mold it and I’ll hold it till I’m born. So I turned to the land where I’m so out of place, throw a curse on the plan in return for the grace to know where I stand, take everything I own, take your tap from my phone and leave my life alone.
i am only looking for some validations and some appreciation of my own. i am here, i may know where i stand but i am completely lost in a place of nowhere. i do not know where to go next after each step i previously took.
despair. gloom. confusions. doubts. paranoia. failure. pain.
this is the CURSE i am talking about.
